hello (again)

a year ago, i adore someone bcs the way he recited the holy Quran. i adore the way he recited Ar-Rahman cs it made my soul calm. and since of that, i prayed to God, i said i wanted him. 

in every corner of Medina & Mecca, i always mentioned his name in my prayer. well, i know it might looked stupid cs how can a little girl prayed for someone to be her future while she didn't exactly know who is he. but it happened to me. and even after go back home, i still always mentioned his name in my prayer cs nothing else i can do but pray and tell Him what i feel. 

well, i believe His plan never goes wrong til one day, i got a news that he wanted to start a new life. it was a lil bit broke my heart, i know. but i wont force something that wasn't meant for me. maybe God has another plan for me. or maybe, he wasn't worth enough for me. well, i still believe that His plan is a best plan, ever. so i changed my prayer. if he really wasn't meant for me, i'm sincerely and totally fine.

but then, unfortunately something bad happened to him. but i'm not gonna wish him to be mine, anymore. i'm just praying for the best. if he is meant to be mine, get me closer to him. but if he isn't meant for me, that's okay. it means someone better will come to me. at least i've tried. and i've learned a lot from him to be a better person.