Random Thought

 For some people, maybe 2020 isn't a good year. There were too many bad surprises that force us to change our life and habit. But it wasn't work for me.  2020 means something. At this year, luckily i reached my long-term plans one by one unconsciously. Things that i never imagine it will come true. Things that i think it'll be just a plan without realization. But well, Alhamdulillah, i achieved it.  At the beginning of 2020, i promised to myself to love & prioritise myself than anyone else. I promise to not waste my time for something unimportant anymore. And those things that made me stronger day by day. I don't want to dependent on someone, and i did it. At least, i didn't force something that it shouldn't be mine, anymore. I learned to let go something that shouldn't be mine sincerely. Lot of things happened this year and i'm blessed i already at this point this year. I'm blessed. And i'm grateful for everything that i have right now. Than...

a year ago, i adore someone bcs the way he recited the holy Quran. i adore the way he recited Ar-Rahman cs it made my soul calm. and since of that, i prayed to God, i said i wanted him.  in every corner of Medina & Mecca, i always mentioned his name in my prayer. well, i know it might looked stupid cs how can a little girl prayed for someone to be her future while she didn't exactly know who is he. but it happened to me. and even after go back home, i still always mentioned his name in my prayer cs nothing else i can do but pray and tell Him what i feel.  well, i believe His plan never goes wrong til one day, i got a news that he wanted to start a new life. it was a lil bit broke my heart, i know. but i wont force something that wasn't meant for me. maybe God has another plan for me. or maybe, he wasn't worth enough for me. well, i still believe that His plan is a best plan, ever. so i changed my prayer. if he really wasn't meant for me, i'm sincerely and totall...