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Time flies, and i'm still mine. Maybe it's my fault, to be easy to be attached with someone It's my fault; to be easy to give my heart, And at last, it just broke my heart again and again. Loyalty and commitment feels very bullshit on me Promises are just promises that haven't means anymore I often thingking, what's wrong with myself? why people being so wicked? aren't they have heart? so, why? why are they lie and leave without permission? I kept thingking about that in my late night But i never got the answer Because maybe, the problem is not on me. It's them. And thing that i learned is; "Just because someone leave you or even doesn't want you, doesn't mean that you're not worth it and good enough. Because sometimes, the problem is on them; not you." "You're just not found the right person yet now. But always believe, there will always be a rainbow behind a pain. Make your fail...

Hi again! Blogger is still and always be a best place for me to tell about everything that i feel & i think about. I write this in the middle of my holiday when i do my paper but i can't focus because.... hey, i'm bored, and i need something for relaxation & being chill because it's so boring to stay at home all day, or maybe, i just need a friend to tell about. Sometimes, i just dont understand with myself. Why it feels so hard to accept someone to myself and being comfort with him when he already accept all of my imperfections. I'm so done to find anymore, tbh. I'm so tired to start everything from zero. But again and again, when i try to start again, everything failed at last. Or maybe i am the one that will leave him. Everything feels so grey for me. It's a bullshit that i don't need someone as a place to tell about. Yash, i need. I need someone to talk about everything randomly. I need to go out, traveling, and get lost together to ...

Have u thanks to yourself today? Thanks to always be the strongest one when everybody just underestimate you Thanks to keep being nice to everyone when everything feels nauseated Thanks for everything that you have done for this time And thanks for fighting to survive even when you don't want to One thing that you must realize is; You did good, babe. It's okay that people might insult you Not everyone will agree and like you That's life, right? But you know what's the best for you And everything that you have decide, you know better than them -the benefit & the risk- Just let it Stop hurting yourself by thingking what others think about you As i said before, All you did was good enough You are who you are, not like what other people said And you deserve better You deserve better all the good things, And dont for a second think you're not worth it I'm proud of you And always Best Regards, Nanda

It's been a long time since i write the last time. And i'll keep to write anything -unimportant & random thing- in here. I know i still have a lot of mistakes. So, for u guys that read this, gracias! Terimakasih telah meluangkan waktu untuk membaca curhatan & tulisan-tulisan saya yang mungkin ga penting & enjoy!